Time for a change

Well now that i've gone through a zillion pictures I think I'm ready to be skinny again. You know whats really sad... when I think to myself how I look I still see the skinny me. But when I see myself in a recent picture or in a mirror I think whoa who's that. I'm not the same. I've gained weight and gotten older... my hair is darker... all that jazz. I can lose weight and I WILL lose weight. You all know my husband is the greatest in the world. Tonight I asked him if I was the same to him as when we first met... of course he didn't want to answer the question and tried to go all around it but finally said no you've changed. He said before I was not only smaller I was also very peppy. You know... being overweight effects everything about you... your health... your self image.... your self worth... everything... I know that before I had more confidence and that is what I miss. I miss being able to wear something and not feeling I look huge or that its clinging to my rolls. I want to be able to play with my children without running out of breath. I'm really serious this time. I have to do something now or else I will keep putting it off.