Consumed

I've been consumed for the last 2 days on the disappearance of the local girl. I'd rather not mention her name b/c I don't want all that traffic on here! I've spent hours straight on the computer waiting for something new to be posted. As a mother my heart was breaking.... I kept praying that no matter what situation she'd gotten herself into that she'd know that her parents love is unconditional and they just wanted her hoome!!!! I've made my share of stupid teenage mistakes and was just praying and praying she'd be found unharmed. A lot of the things I heard didn't make sense to me. I'm one of those people that wants to know all the details. I analyze things over and over again. We'll probably never hear the truth behind this ordeal. But the most important part is she's home now.

I have class tonight. I don't really want to go. Its getting down to the last bit now and nobody cares if they miss or not. Even though they don't take off for missing I still feel like I need to go in order to set the example for my own child. I have an English paper to write. I hope to get that done asap! I haven't been motivated lately... about school work or anything. I've been lazy. I admit it. I've been really lazy and selfish. I need to get out of this funk. It hits me every now and then like I'm sure it does everyone. And realizing it is probably the first step to getting over it :) At least thats what they say to alcoholics :)

I wish I could be consumed with God's word like I was with this ordeal.