All is well...
I'm sorry I've been sick and I started school.
I'm still not 100% back to myself yet but I'm feeling better than I have been. I started school and everything has been really busy. I'm supposed to studying right now but I'm ADD and so I had to take a break :)
I turned 30 on Aug 13th and my husband threw me a surprise party... except I kinda found out about it by accident. But I was extremely grateful for the amount of planning my hubby put into it. I love him so much and appreciate everything he does for me :)
Matthew's brother and wife were in town for 2 weeks... although we didn't get to spend much time with them b/c they went to the mountains for a week and then to the beach. But we did manage to get a few hours in with them. I miss them and wish they'd lived closer but if they did I probably wouldn't see them as much as I think I would. We all stay extremely busy.
Jessica's volleyball season is in full swing.... 2 games a week! Last night was the first game I've missed so far :( It was an away game and I really needed to stay home with my hubby and little ones. I feel like I never see them since they're in school all day. They're all doing really well.
This is the first semester that I've really doubted myself. Its Anatomy and Physiology that's got me worried. There's a lot to take in... important stuff that I need to know for nursing :) My teacher is young and really friendly. I think she's going to be a good teacher. I'm just worried. The other night I almost broke down in tears b/c I started doubting this whole thing. I know I can do it. Its not going to be easy but I can do it.
I really need to get back to reading!
Friday, August 28, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
First Day Memories
My kids were thrilled to death to see me yesterday. Jeremiah had just woken up from his nap and he was still kinda out of it. The teacher said he kept fussing and she thought he was saying something about a booboo but she couldn't find anything. He wasn't talking about a booboo... its bubankey aka blue blanket! She'll know next time!
Their teacher called me later on that evening to reassure me that all went well. She said they had some trouble understanding the stay in your seat rule but she assured me they weren't the only ones. She said Jeremiah quickly caught on to the rules but Jacob wanted to buck them a little more :) Thats my Jacob! She also commented on "the look" he gave her... I told her we referred to that as the grumpy old man look. She laughed.
Darcy had a good day up until lunch time. She knows that at lunch time the half day students leave and she was asking for me. She calmed down and took a nap. She was also very excited to see me. Once we got home she never left my side.
Today was a much easier day. Everyone was in a good mood. They all entered their classrooms and sat down in their seats. I can't wait to pick them up and see how their day went.
I've been uber productive today :) My day went better than yesterday also. Thanks for the prayers, emails, comments and phone calls!!!!!
I promise to post pics soon!
Their teacher called me later on that evening to reassure me that all went well. She said they had some trouble understanding the stay in your seat rule but she assured me they weren't the only ones. She said Jeremiah quickly caught on to the rules but Jacob wanted to buck them a little more :) Thats my Jacob! She also commented on "the look" he gave her... I told her we referred to that as the grumpy old man look. She laughed.
Darcy had a good day up until lunch time. She knows that at lunch time the half day students leave and she was asking for me. She calmed down and took a nap. She was also very excited to see me. Once we got home she never left my side.
Today was a much easier day. Everyone was in a good mood. They all entered their classrooms and sat down in their seats. I can't wait to pick them up and see how their day went.
I've been uber productive today :) My day went better than yesterday also. Thanks for the prayers, emails, comments and phone calls!!!!!
I promise to post pics soon!
Monday, August 10, 2009
First Day
Wow. I'm sitting here on my couch with big puffy eyes. Its 11am and my tv is off. The house is empty and my heart is broken.
Here comes the tears again.
I remember in Sept of 04 when I was forced to quit work due to health reasons. I told everyone that I'd be back after Darcy was born. I laughed when a friend told me I'd change my mind. Darcy was born on Nov 16th and I've been a stay at home mom since that day.
Today I woke up my boys and told them it was time to go to school. They were thrilled. Their eyes were still squinty as they came down the stairs. They were so excited when I was packing up their lunch and snacks. They couldn't wait to put on their book bags. I stuff Jeremiah's blue blanket in his back pack. And at one point I saw him laying on the couch with just enough blanket out of the back pack for him to put it in his mouth. He was content. I was started to break down.
Darcy woke up in not such a good mood. Matthew had decided to go in late so he could go with me to take them. Darcy was very clingy. We fought with her all morning. I tried really hard to make it a happy day for them all so things would start off well. Didn't go so well with her.
We got to the school and she insisted on Matthew carrying her. We took the boys first. They went straight in and never looked back. Ms. Shelia was directing them where to put their stuff. They were so excited.
Next we took Darcy down to her room. She didn't want Matthew to put her down. She held on tight to him and her blankey. Finally we got her feet to touch the floor but she didn't want us to leave yet. I was fighting back tears and so was she. Finally I knew I had to leave or else I'd break down. The teacher took her by the hand and asked her if she could be her helper. She went peacefully.
We sat outside their rooms for a good bit. We'd randomly ask people to stick their heads in the door and check on our kids. Each time they'd say "oh they're fine!" Finally I made myself leave. I really think I could have stayed there all day.
I came home and sat on the couch. I haven't moved. I haven't turned on the TV yet. A few close friends have called to check on me. I cried for 2 solid hours. I'm okay now. My eyes are puffy and my head hurts. I made myself an eye appointment and a dentist appointment. Both times I cried when they asked me when I could come. I told them anytime b/c my babies were all in school and I had nothing to do anymore. They were compassionate.
Maybe tomorrow will be better for Darcy. I hope my kids all come home excited. And eventually I will fill my days with productive things to do. But today I'll just sit here and cry.
Here comes the tears again.
I remember in Sept of 04 when I was forced to quit work due to health reasons. I told everyone that I'd be back after Darcy was born. I laughed when a friend told me I'd change my mind. Darcy was born on Nov 16th and I've been a stay at home mom since that day.
Today I woke up my boys and told them it was time to go to school. They were thrilled. Their eyes were still squinty as they came down the stairs. They were so excited when I was packing up their lunch and snacks. They couldn't wait to put on their book bags. I stuff Jeremiah's blue blanket in his back pack. And at one point I saw him laying on the couch with just enough blanket out of the back pack for him to put it in his mouth. He was content. I was started to break down.
Darcy woke up in not such a good mood. Matthew had decided to go in late so he could go with me to take them. Darcy was very clingy. We fought with her all morning. I tried really hard to make it a happy day for them all so things would start off well. Didn't go so well with her.
We got to the school and she insisted on Matthew carrying her. We took the boys first. They went straight in and never looked back. Ms. Shelia was directing them where to put their stuff. They were so excited.
Next we took Darcy down to her room. She didn't want Matthew to put her down. She held on tight to him and her blankey. Finally we got her feet to touch the floor but she didn't want us to leave yet. I was fighting back tears and so was she. Finally I knew I had to leave or else I'd break down. The teacher took her by the hand and asked her if she could be her helper. She went peacefully.
We sat outside their rooms for a good bit. We'd randomly ask people to stick their heads in the door and check on our kids. Each time they'd say "oh they're fine!" Finally I made myself leave. I really think I could have stayed there all day.
I came home and sat on the couch. I haven't moved. I haven't turned on the TV yet. A few close friends have called to check on me. I cried for 2 solid hours. I'm okay now. My eyes are puffy and my head hurts. I made myself an eye appointment and a dentist appointment. Both times I cried when they asked me when I could come. I told them anytime b/c my babies were all in school and I had nothing to do anymore. They were compassionate.
Maybe tomorrow will be better for Darcy. I hope my kids all come home excited. And eventually I will fill my days with productive things to do. But today I'll just sit here and cry.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
tears already?
I cried tonight at the parent orientation. I'm still a little teary eyed. I'm worried about them and how they'll handle school.
Reflecting Back
I was talking to a girlfriend today on the phone and she asked me what I was going to do with all my kids in school. I've been a stay at home mom for 4 years now. Something that God totally blessed me with. I have guilt from the years I missed with Jessica b/c I was too consumed with other things. But with my little folks I've been able to be here with them. It hasn't always been peachy... In fact I've struggled with depression, financial issues and other things along the way. But I have some awesome memories. About the time I became a SAHM Jessica begin playing sports.... I know that if I still had a job then I'd miss out on more than half of her games. So I've enjoyed my years at home. I'm grateful to have a husband that feels the way I do about being at home.
My next chapter... my little ones start on Monday. I'll be taking 3 classes in the fall. I was going to work at the pizza place but recently found out it closed :( I'll be sub'ing at the school some to help with tuition. I'm still in a catch 22 with job/pell grant. But I'm not worried. I have faith. I'll have time to do things I've wanted to do... clean my house from top to bottom! Organize closets! Paint my bathroom! Go to the Eye Doctor (amen)! Go to the Dentist! Grab lunch with friends! I'll have plenty of time to study!!!
I'm sure it won't take me long to get board... at least thats what I think will happen. But I'm really looking forward to some me time. I still have my membership at the gym... didn't go all summer long but kept it b/c I knew in the fall I'd have all the time in the world to get skinny!
I've felt a little anxious about my boys going to school but this past week I realized it was time! They're board here with me and they need more socializing. They have the same teacher Darcy had last year and I love her to death. She's a wonderful God loving teacher and she loves her students!!
My next chapter... my little ones start on Monday. I'll be taking 3 classes in the fall. I was going to work at the pizza place but recently found out it closed :( I'll be sub'ing at the school some to help with tuition. I'm still in a catch 22 with job/pell grant. But I'm not worried. I have faith. I'll have time to do things I've wanted to do... clean my house from top to bottom! Organize closets! Paint my bathroom! Go to the Eye Doctor (amen)! Go to the Dentist! Grab lunch with friends! I'll have plenty of time to study!!!
I'm sure it won't take me long to get board... at least thats what I think will happen. But I'm really looking forward to some me time. I still have my membership at the gym... didn't go all summer long but kept it b/c I knew in the fall I'd have all the time in the world to get skinny!
I've felt a little anxious about my boys going to school but this past week I realized it was time! They're board here with me and they need more socializing. They have the same teacher Darcy had last year and I love her to death. She's a wonderful God loving teacher and she loves her students!!
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Oh what fun
jeremiah loves to pee outside... if he had the chance he was going to pee!
He was determined he was going to climb this rock by himself!
Grandparents with Grandkids :)
explore your little hearts out!
CC and Daddy trying to show the little ones a nest in the trees
Jessica insisted on climbing the highest rocks!
The boys wanted to climb those same rocks!
Jessica insisted on climbing the highest rocks!
The boys wanted to climb those same rocks!
Rock Climbing!
My kids climbed all over the rocks... I had a hard time letting them
Jacob & Jeremiah doing it all by himself
My family
Jeremiah moving the rock
Exploring
If you only knew how many pics we took in order to get one where we all look somewhat normal...
My kids loved climbing on all these rocks!
Jacob and Mommy
Jessica and Mommy
Wolf Look Out
My super duper cute family :)
My kids running all over the place... kinda freaked me out
My kids running all over the place... kinda freaked me out
Jessica wanted to stand on top of this but I wouldn't let her :(
Jacob checking out the view
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
More pics
It was actually raining when were out there but it didn't matter to them. I was hiding under the beach umbrella :) The water was really calm.
My little ones loved the beach. They wanted to be in the ocean the whole time. It was fun but having 30 lbs around your neck is rough :)
Jeremiah came into our room every morning to snuggle :)
I love this pic of the two of them.
There was a boat that came to the beach infront of our hotel every day (3x a day actually) and fired a canon... it eventually became known to our kids as the pirate ship. It was LOUD! The boys would yell "The pirates are coming!" very cute!
We had a lot of great memories. Here's a few...
My little ones loved the beach. They wanted to be in the ocean the whole time. It was fun but having 30 lbs around your neck is rough :)
Jeremiah came into our room every morning to snuggle :)
I love this pic of the two of them.
There was a boat that came to the beach infront of our hotel every day (3x a day actually) and fired a canon... it eventually became known to our kids as the pirate ship. It was LOUD! The boys would yell "The pirates are coming!" very cute!
We had a lot of great memories. Here's a few...
Jacob would always find a group of girls in the pool to hang out with... older girls! He even gave one a hug and kiss :)
Jeremiah loved swimming but he would be the first to say "i wanna snack" or "i wanna take a nap"
Darcy tried her best to make friends with everyone... young kids and even older men.
Jessica and I spent some "momma/jessica" time... we even did the parasailing
Matthew and I laughed at night b/c our room was sooo stinking bright and we slept with boxers over our face to block out the light!
there's many more but I've got restless kids :)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Friend or Foe?
Most of the time I delete emails like this without even reading them... ya know the ones like you're my bestie and if you love me too you'll send this back to me and to 10 other friends... and if not then your dog will die... yeah i hate those kinds. But today I read this one... I guess it was meant to be b/c I really related to this devotion. It actually sounded like something I could have written myself. I have a hard time finding friends. I really desire to have "close" friends but it just doesn't happen with me. I find someone that I know is a good fit but then they don't put in the effort to be my friend and my feelings get hurt.
Read this... it was emailed to me today and I wanted to share it here.
Women: Friend or Foe?
28 Jul 2009'
Rachel Olsen
"I'm a friend and companion of all who fear you, of those committed to living by your rules." Psalm 119:63 (MSG)
Not long ago I would've told you that I don't much like women. I counted a few as friends, but the rest of the gender I dismissed categorically as too much trouble. Never a "tomboy" by any stretch of the imagination, I just found guys so much easier to deal with. They generally say what they mean, let you know where you stand, and never size you up to determine who has the better haircut.
I didn't want to distrust women, but the majority of females in my life at the time evoked that response. They were catty, competitive, and conniving. They gossiped, backstabbed and manipulated. I have to admit that I often responded in kind. Isn't it strange how addictive relational drama can be?
I'm told you can put a frog in a pot of cold water on the stove and gradually turn up the heat, and it will stay in the pot until it reaches a fatal boil without attempting escape. Evidently the frog doesn't realize how unhealthy the situation is slowly becoming. I can't vouch for the accuracy of that fable - I'd never boil a frog! - but I've been in a few friendships that were like that. I stayed way too long in the pot before I realized this isn't healthy for me, and I got burned.
So what lead me to flip-flop my position on having girlfriends? First, I decided to follow Christ. This sparked many beneficial changes in my mind and spirit. Where I had been cynical and guarded, God's love penetrated and softened my heart. I learned the meaning of Proverbs 18:24, "There are friends who pretend to be friends, but there is a friend that sticks closer than a brother" (RSV). Christ was now my forever friend who could be trusted completely.
I also made changes in my choice of girlfriends. With the help of the Holy Spirit and lessons on character from the book of Proverbs, I learned to recognize which people and relational patterns were unhealthy for me. I was ready to be rid of the drama! The Bible teaches, "He who walks with the wise grows wise" (Proverbs 13:20, NIV). I wanted to walk with wise women through life. Many of my current-at-the-time friendships ran their natural course and dissolved. A few transformed along with me. But a few I deliberately phased out because my own character wasn't strong enough yet to remain Christ-like in their company.
Meanwhile, I prayed for quality friendships with women of faith. God heard my prayers, just as the Bible promises He does. Fun-loving, God-loving, gracious women at my church sought me out and invited me out. And I made the choice to trust them and invest. I discovered how beneficial it is to surround yourself with women who inspire your walk with God.
Over time, God birthed in me a huge love and great compassion for women. I began seeing them through His eyes and not just the lens of my own hurtful past. I realized that not all women are like those I had known. I also learned to forgive and pray for those who've hurt me. Today I cherish my friendships with the women in my life.
What about you? How are your friendships? Do you find yourself entangled in an unhealthy relationship? Are you in emotional hiding after being burned? Maybe you've written off the entire gender because of the trouble you've seen. Take that to God and ask Him to heal and bring restoration to your heart. Ask Him to send godly, wise women into your life. Then muster up the courage to respond and befriend them.
Neither gender is categorically a foe – but I count myself happy to be sipping tea, playing Dominos, doing Bible study, shopping and sharing my dreams with sisters of the fairer sex. Won't you join us?
Dear Lord, I want to have good friends, and to be a good friend. Help me to develop godly friendships, in Jesus' Name, Amen.
Is there someone you can befriend? Striking up a friendship can be a great way to introduce a gal to Christ.
Reflections:What is the current state of your friendships – are they nurturing? Godly?Are you open to making new friends? Why or why not?
Power Verses:
James 2:23, "And the scripture was fulfilled that says, 'Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,' and he was called God's friend." (NIV)Proverbs 22:11, "If you love purity of heart and graciousness of speech, the king will be your friend." (GNT)
Read this... it was emailed to me today and I wanted to share it here.
Women: Friend or Foe?
28 Jul 2009'
Rachel Olsen
"I'm a friend and companion of all who fear you, of those committed to living by your rules." Psalm 119:63 (MSG)
Not long ago I would've told you that I don't much like women. I counted a few as friends, but the rest of the gender I dismissed categorically as too much trouble. Never a "tomboy" by any stretch of the imagination, I just found guys so much easier to deal with. They generally say what they mean, let you know where you stand, and never size you up to determine who has the better haircut.
I didn't want to distrust women, but the majority of females in my life at the time evoked that response. They were catty, competitive, and conniving. They gossiped, backstabbed and manipulated. I have to admit that I often responded in kind. Isn't it strange how addictive relational drama can be?
I'm told you can put a frog in a pot of cold water on the stove and gradually turn up the heat, and it will stay in the pot until it reaches a fatal boil without attempting escape. Evidently the frog doesn't realize how unhealthy the situation is slowly becoming. I can't vouch for the accuracy of that fable - I'd never boil a frog! - but I've been in a few friendships that were like that. I stayed way too long in the pot before I realized this isn't healthy for me, and I got burned.
So what lead me to flip-flop my position on having girlfriends? First, I decided to follow Christ. This sparked many beneficial changes in my mind and spirit. Where I had been cynical and guarded, God's love penetrated and softened my heart. I learned the meaning of Proverbs 18:24, "There are friends who pretend to be friends, but there is a friend that sticks closer than a brother" (RSV). Christ was now my forever friend who could be trusted completely.
I also made changes in my choice of girlfriends. With the help of the Holy Spirit and lessons on character from the book of Proverbs, I learned to recognize which people and relational patterns were unhealthy for me. I was ready to be rid of the drama! The Bible teaches, "He who walks with the wise grows wise" (Proverbs 13:20, NIV). I wanted to walk with wise women through life. Many of my current-at-the-time friendships ran their natural course and dissolved. A few transformed along with me. But a few I deliberately phased out because my own character wasn't strong enough yet to remain Christ-like in their company.
Meanwhile, I prayed for quality friendships with women of faith. God heard my prayers, just as the Bible promises He does. Fun-loving, God-loving, gracious women at my church sought me out and invited me out. And I made the choice to trust them and invest. I discovered how beneficial it is to surround yourself with women who inspire your walk with God.
Over time, God birthed in me a huge love and great compassion for women. I began seeing them through His eyes and not just the lens of my own hurtful past. I realized that not all women are like those I had known. I also learned to forgive and pray for those who've hurt me. Today I cherish my friendships with the women in my life.
What about you? How are your friendships? Do you find yourself entangled in an unhealthy relationship? Are you in emotional hiding after being burned? Maybe you've written off the entire gender because of the trouble you've seen. Take that to God and ask Him to heal and bring restoration to your heart. Ask Him to send godly, wise women into your life. Then muster up the courage to respond and befriend them.
Neither gender is categorically a foe – but I count myself happy to be sipping tea, playing Dominos, doing Bible study, shopping and sharing my dreams with sisters of the fairer sex. Won't you join us?
Dear Lord, I want to have good friends, and to be a good friend. Help me to develop godly friendships, in Jesus' Name, Amen.
Is there someone you can befriend? Striking up a friendship can be a great way to introduce a gal to Christ.
Reflections:What is the current state of your friendships – are they nurturing? Godly?Are you open to making new friends? Why or why not?
Power Verses:
James 2:23, "And the scripture was fulfilled that says, 'Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,' and he was called God's friend." (NIV)Proverbs 22:11, "If you love purity of heart and graciousness of speech, the king will be your friend." (GNT)
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Beaching It
We're having a blast here in Panama City. The kids don't want to get out of the ocean. But they won't let go of us and its rough. They wanna bounce in the waves... which I love to do just now with 35lbs wrapped around my neck! LOL We go back and forth between the pool and the beach. They swim like fishies. We head home tomorrow.
Jessica wasn't able to bring a friend (b/c her friends mom wouldn't let her go) so I've tried to spend some girl time with her. She really wants to parasail but I can't bring myself to paying $120 for us to do it. Although I remember begging my parents to let me do it :) I wonder if I can talk the guy down on his prices.
We'll I'd better cook lunch for these hungry pirates :) I have lots of pics to share when we get home :)
Jessica wasn't able to bring a friend (b/c her friends mom wouldn't let her go) so I've tried to spend some girl time with her. She really wants to parasail but I can't bring myself to paying $120 for us to do it. Although I remember begging my parents to let me do it :) I wonder if I can talk the guy down on his prices.
We'll I'd better cook lunch for these hungry pirates :) I have lots of pics to share when we get home :)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Enjoy the pics
Rocky, Tara, Blaine and our crew minus Darcy who was riding the gator with Papa Wayne
We had a really good time at Jessica's party
Jessica & Stephanie
Jenga blocks... their new pasttime is building castles with these blocks :)
Darcy's "wild hair" for VBS... she's such a cutie!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Making it
I've been overwhelmed with the thought of having to do my paper for my new testament class so after weeks of putting it off I finally sat down today and started on it. So far I've got 2 pages typed. It has to be at least 3 pages and no more than 5. I don't think I'll have a problem doing 2 more pages. Once I got started it came pretty easy... its just having the time without distractions to do it. I want to have it done before we leave for the beach on Friday morning.
The weekend after this weekend we go to Mentone, AL with Matt's family. The following week school starts for Jessica and the little ones start that next week. Busy Busy Busy. I've registered for my fall classes. I'm taking 9 hours. I'll be taking my math 090 online. Speech is tuesdays & thursday at night and my bio 201 is on monday and wednesdays during the day. I'm hoping to go and speak with a nursing advisor tomorrow. I need to ask some questions about my schedule once I get into the nursing program.
Jessica's birthday came and went. She had her party at her nana's (her dad's mom) but none of her friends showed up.... only 1 girl from school. Rocky and Tara came down with their son, Blaine. It was a beautiful day and we enjoyed ourselves... I just wish her friends would have came. Oh... her dad called her on her birthday. We didn't tell him we were having her party at Nana's ;) This was the first time he's talked to her since Christmas (unless you count the time he spoke to her in the driveway at his parents house a few weeks back).
Well I'd better get off the computer. I've got to study for a psychology test on thursday.
The weekend after this weekend we go to Mentone, AL with Matt's family. The following week school starts for Jessica and the little ones start that next week. Busy Busy Busy. I've registered for my fall classes. I'm taking 9 hours. I'll be taking my math 090 online. Speech is tuesdays & thursday at night and my bio 201 is on monday and wednesdays during the day. I'm hoping to go and speak with a nursing advisor tomorrow. I need to ask some questions about my schedule once I get into the nursing program.
Jessica's birthday came and went. She had her party at her nana's (her dad's mom) but none of her friends showed up.... only 1 girl from school. Rocky and Tara came down with their son, Blaine. It was a beautiful day and we enjoyed ourselves... I just wish her friends would have came. Oh... her dad called her on her birthday. We didn't tell him we were having her party at Nana's ;) This was the first time he's talked to her since Christmas (unless you count the time he spoke to her in the driveway at his parents house a few weeks back).
Well I'd better get off the computer. I've got to study for a psychology test on thursday.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
My little guys and the burnt out mom
First a short something about the boys :
This applies to both of them. When they don't want something or to do something they say "I can't wanna____" its the cutest thing ever :)
Now moving on to the Burnt Out Mom:
I've lost my mom of the year award :( The last few weeks have been really stressful. I realize as a parent that my kids are bored and that they don't desire to sit and chill like myself. I know that I need to pick my battles. I know as kids they get into things and disobey but my job as a parent is to deal with those things in a godly way. I catch myself feeling guilty for the way I've acted towards them but I continue to do the same things. I'm in a rut. One of our good friends gave me a book called parenting for the burnt out parent... I really wish I could find it right about now! I read on Staci's blog the other day about yelling (she had no idea what I'd been going through) and it made me feel guilty all over again. One amazing thing about kids is they have that same sort of unconditional love that Jesus shows up.... or so it seems. Even after losing my temper my kids still want to rub noses with me and give me all their kisses.
Tonight in class we watched a video about a child who suffered from a mental disorder and I began to tear up. I'm so grateful for my kids. They are beautiful, healthy and smart kids. I tell them all the time that they make my heart grow bigger... its amazing how much love you can have for your children. I have a lump in my throat right now just thinking about it. They are precious gifts from God!
I refuse to stay in this rut!
This applies to both of them. When they don't want something or to do something they say "I can't wanna____" its the cutest thing ever :)
Now moving on to the Burnt Out Mom:
I've lost my mom of the year award :( The last few weeks have been really stressful. I realize as a parent that my kids are bored and that they don't desire to sit and chill like myself. I know that I need to pick my battles. I know as kids they get into things and disobey but my job as a parent is to deal with those things in a godly way. I catch myself feeling guilty for the way I've acted towards them but I continue to do the same things. I'm in a rut. One of our good friends gave me a book called parenting for the burnt out parent... I really wish I could find it right about now! I read on Staci's blog the other day about yelling (she had no idea what I'd been going through) and it made me feel guilty all over again. One amazing thing about kids is they have that same sort of unconditional love that Jesus shows up.... or so it seems. Even after losing my temper my kids still want to rub noses with me and give me all their kisses.
Tonight in class we watched a video about a child who suffered from a mental disorder and I began to tear up. I'm so grateful for my kids. They are beautiful, healthy and smart kids. I tell them all the time that they make my heart grow bigger... its amazing how much love you can have for your children. I have a lump in my throat right now just thinking about it. They are precious gifts from God!
I refuse to stay in this rut!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Catch Up
Our roof is on... it looks nice. I'll get a picture when its not raining :)
Our ac upstairs is out again... like really out now. I have to call someone to come out... its beyond my hubby and fil now.
I took Jessica to Altanta yesterday. I didn't want to leave her. She has 1 roommate and they share a bathroom with 2 other girls.... those 3 girls are all from the same school. They go to a christian school and I was able to meet their parents. They all seemed like really nice good kids. I felt a little better about leaving her. She called me at 10:30 last night to tell me she was having fun but was really tired. Its going to be a long week for her. They'll stay busy from 7:30 till 11:30pm.
Jessica turns 14 on Saturday.
They boys are doing great with pottying training. They wear diapers at night only (only cause I don't want them to pee on their mattresses). They're having issues with pooping in the toilet but I know that takes a little more time. I've cleaned up a lot of poop in the last week but I'm confident they'll conquer it soon!
School is going good... I'm kinda burnt out and wishing I wouldn't have taken classes this summer. Its hard to make myself go to class when there's so many other things I could do with my family. But its all going to be worth it :)
Our ac upstairs is out again... like really out now. I have to call someone to come out... its beyond my hubby and fil now.
I took Jessica to Altanta yesterday. I didn't want to leave her. She has 1 roommate and they share a bathroom with 2 other girls.... those 3 girls are all from the same school. They go to a christian school and I was able to meet their parents. They all seemed like really nice good kids. I felt a little better about leaving her. She called me at 10:30 last night to tell me she was having fun but was really tired. Its going to be a long week for her. They'll stay busy from 7:30 till 11:30pm.
Jessica turns 14 on Saturday.
They boys are doing great with pottying training. They wear diapers at night only (only cause I don't want them to pee on their mattresses). They're having issues with pooping in the toilet but I know that takes a little more time. I've cleaned up a lot of poop in the last week but I'm confident they'll conquer it soon!
School is going good... I'm kinda burnt out and wishing I wouldn't have taken classes this summer. Its hard to make myself go to class when there's so many other things I could do with my family. But its all going to be worth it :)
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
A weekend of fun!!
Jessica's bf was able to spend the day with us on Friday.
Jeremiah learned the concept of peeing outside. He did this all weekend long... and one time Matthew said Jeremiah went outside just to pee! lol
Darcy loves ribs jus like her big sis (but of course i'm not allowed to take pics of jessica while she's eating)
Uncle Matthew with Cody
More fun on the 4th
This was actually the last thing we did that night. Jeremiah loved em. Jacob didn't come outside and Darcy wanted more.
Jeremiah screamed more more more... I really enjoyed watching him freak out over the fireworks
Darcy hated them... I was the same way when I was a child. She started out outside but stayed inside most of the time. She freaked out... like F R E A K E D OUT!
this was the beginning... jacob didn't care for them. he disappeared inside and watched tv
Jessica was incharge of doing the fireworks while we watched
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