It IS me :(

I often wonder why I always seem to have issues with other people. Why am I always having incidents? Is it me... It is. Being outspoken isn't always a good thing. Holding back is better. Why do I always feel the need to put somebody in their place? Or why do I feel like I always have to stick up for myself? Why do I get mad over the silliest things? Things I cannot control and most of the time really don't affect me personally. Why do I need to have the last word? Why do I have to prove I'm right and they're wrong? I hate this about myself. After a while people peg you as the one that stirs up trouble. I justify things a lot and say "well they deserved it! they were wrong or they shouldn't have done/said this or that." Why can't I let things go? Once I get mad it snowballs... why? I've become more and more aware of this issue and it makes me sad but when "it" is going on I can't see it. Matthew says I need to stop before it gets to that point but the thing is I don't stop.... I'm in the moment. I want to change. I don't want to be a ticking timebomb waiting for the next person to cross me so I can let em have it. I want to be meek and humble. Is that possible?

My boys

Its hard to believe my boys are turning 4 in a few weeks. My life has changed so much since having them. I still remember the moment I found out I was having twins. I was soooo overjoyed and shocked. I remember joking with the nurses and doctor about having twins and the next thing i know they're telling me I'm having twins! I had to tell myself that he wasn't joking with me.

Their birthday is the same weekend as Easter this year so we're having just a family thing on Sunday. I'm trying to decide if I want to order them each a cake this year or not... they're getting to that age where I think it might matter to them. But I don't want to pay for 2 seperate cakes! We'll see.

THIS SUCKS!

I have some sort of head cold and I'm miserable! The left side of my face is stopped up and feels swollen. I feel like I could mash on it all day to relieve pressure. I hate being this way. I have too much to do to be sick.

I was supposed to work yesterday... got up at 6am, got the kids to school and headed to work. Got pulled over in Alabaster for an expired tag, tried to call my dad to ride with him but I couldn't get in touch with him so I drove all the way to Bessemer. I was there for about an hour when the school called me to tell me Darcy was sick. Drove all the way to get her and when I got there she seemed fine. I was a little mad but according to everyone she was in tears with tummy aches. I took advantage of the time together. She got her hair cut (her request) and we had lunch (taco bell - again her request). I realized that God was looking out for me b/c had I ridin to work with my dad I wouldn't have had any way to get her from school. The office is at least an hour and 15 minutes away and he had a busy schedule. So Thank you Jesus for looking out for me :)

Class tonight, work tomorrow and friday.

Shhhhhh

This year at church I signed up to do the Secret Sister thing... my first time to ever do secret sister. I've had a really fun time doing little things for my SS. I've left notes, little gifts and all sorts of fun things. BUT.... whoever drew my name hasn't done anything :( Am I doing too much? How does this work? Matthew says I got jipped. What are your thoughts? Of course I'm not doing it to get anything in return but I am kinda disappointed that I haven't gotten anything - a card would be fine.

Come & Gone

I had a list of things I really needed to accomplish while out for Spring Break but I didn't get them done. I took on a PT temporary job with my dad's office that has turned into something more. I enjoy the opportunity to make the extra cash but its hard to go back to work after being a SAHM for 5 years... and its even harder when you're working for your dad :)

Matthew also finished up his job at the campus. He's been working less than 15 minutes from home for a while now (maybe 2 years?). I had gotten very used to it. We all had. Today he started at the new place... its in Trussville/Roebuck. Its a long drive... more like an hour and 15 minutes :( This is only temporary. They have 2 weeks of work to do there and then he'll be moved somewhere else but the 'else' part is where we have no clue. No more lunches with my hubby... or just running into him on my way to class. I'm feeling a little down about it. Now we'll only see each other in passing on the nights I have school. And the other 3 nights he'll be getting home much later than usual. But before you all go off on me let me just say... I know it could be worse! I have a dear friend whose hubby works in another state during the week.... I have another friends whose hubby's a fireman and spends every 3rd night away from home... my sister in law is about to send her hubby overseas for 18 months. I get it! It could be worse. But it doesn't change the way I feel.

Lets end this on a positive note :) My sister in law, Amy, had her baby last Tuesday. Flannery is her name... she weighted 9lbs 2oz. She's very cute. All is doing well.

Spring Break Baby!

Or just another week for me... except no school and my kids are home with me. I'm trying to think of cheap things we can do.

TWO!?!

2 stinkin comments! HA! Thats all I got on my blog aniversary post! Geez!

5 year Blogging Aniversary

March is my 5 year blogging aniversary.

Who knew it would last this long?

I've gone through some ups and downs on my blog. I've thought about closing it down several times but its still up and running.

I love getting comments but these days they're few and far between. So today show me some love and leave me a comment! Better yet tell me about one of your favorite post from my blog!!!

Thanks for all the support over the years :)

Here's to another 5 years!!!

Nosey Folks

Some people are truly concerned and want to know and then there's those that just want to be in the know.

I have this person on Facebook who is my mom's age but not a friend of my mom's.... I know her and her sons. She used to be really good friends with Jessica's dad's side of the family but apparently they lost touch. Well a few weeks back she messages me on FB and ask me some questions about Jessica's relationship with her dad. I answered her but kinda felt like she was crossing the line a little. Yesterday she does it again! I replied back and told her the same thing. Well this time she comes back and defends him! She starts placing the blame on his wife and it really rubbed me the wrong way. Where does she get off asking me in the first place details of my life? I was really annoyed and you're probably thinking "why not delete her"... well I dunno. I guess I wanted her to know the truth so she didn't think I was keeping him from her. Oh well... I guess I learned a lesson here!